Mai aisa kyun hoon?

A MORALISTIC person will not kill

The same person if in a soldier's role will kill as per his ETHICAL duty

A PRINCIPLED person will use both as a foundation for action, behaviour or reasoning. Thus, a soldier will kill the enemy combatant soldiers on the battle field in action but not if they're captured as prisoners of war. Then he even feeds or administers first-aid on them if wounded.

Every person, you & me included - begins life with an idealistic view of the world.

That's cause, as God's children, our minds are a clean slate and so idealism of humanism is our natural state. 

As we grow, we encounter more earthly experiences.

We begin to realize that even the earth is tilted, it's axis of rotation is a bit slanting, speaking actually & as a figure of speech i.e. duniya sach-me tedhi hai !

We also learn that walking straight on crooked street in this tilted world, makes us appear clumsy. 

We begin to understand the ways of the world & so want to fix the world according to - our lens.

Our lens is fabricated by our past - whose progeny are we, our cultural moorings & encountered experiences.

One of the three things eventually happen:

Idealist A

Some idealistic people stubbornly hold on to straightforward-ness & fanatically cling on to their MORALS in dealing with the world they encounter.

They are that brand of soldiers, who'll preach the virtues of monkhood in the midst of a war.

These are hermits who live in their heads & so deemed impractical or misfits in the real world.

They achieve much below their true potential - all their lives, they remain correct but inappropriate.

These are the "Centralist". 

Idealist B

Some idealistic people realize, that in order to improve things, they must move up the existing order, as for effective change, they need power.

To attain power, they align themselves with the system's ecological ETHICS. They're not status quo-ist nor totally for the structure in it's present form.

They in fact desire to add robustness to the existing system but by pruning & purging away all that's weakening it.

Eventually when they are on top of the system & they soon begin to alter it from within to reshape it to suit their grand narrative. These folks establish an army of inspired men who protect the system.

They believe in a strong central control, a top-down approach. Under their regime, the weak & marginalized feel that they have had a raw deal.

These are "Right of Centre" people.

Idealist C

These idealistic folks believe that the structure is too rigid to change.

They believe that those few elite on the top have compromised their morals, are unfair & thrusting their dominant views on all - thus feel cheated.

To bring change, they must topple the entire system and a bottom-up approach is required.

They are largely anti-establishment & want to throw away all who control the current order, along with the structure itself & destroy the existing top-down narrative completely.

For the larger good, they momentarily want to sacrifice their long held MORALS & seek the help of any & all at the bottom of the heap, in order to stitch up an army of disenchanted men. They hope to resurrect their PRINCIPLES & their version of order in some distant future.

These then become the "Left of Centre".

All the three categories of people are backward compatible, their objectives are same but their means to reach the end are different.

The A category idealist remains un-inspirational & so produces mediocrity - hiz imagined structure does not take much form.

The B category idealist produce glorious long lasting systems.

The C category idealist, while lasting longer than the A category, it too has a short life. It destroys faster than what it builds - eventually achieves exactly opposite of it's original objective.

While typical have been described above, in each of the three categories, there are 50 shades of grey.

In extreme of extreme cases, the foll can happen:

Category A - folks remain frustrated & self destructive.

Category B - people will become belligerent & attack anyone who is found weakening or is opposed to their idea of grand narrative. Abraham Lincoln's abrogation of the American constitution & declaring of the civil war to save the nation is such an example.

Category C - people are angry with the world & if they get power, will demonstrate genocidal attitudes. Adolf Hitler's is considered an extreme right-winger in pursuit of Pan-Germanism. On the contrary, what motivated him to act, was his belief that post World War-I, the global order was formed by the dominant Franco-British narrative & that capitalism was a Jewish conspiracy - all at the cost of the defeated Germans. Similar examples can also be seen in the Communists powers across the world, where they have killed over 100 million people combined i.e. all those deemed as belonging to the upper echelons of society & supposedly in control the finance & commerce as also the the national mind-set.

These are not just political inclination but attitudes to life.

Ask yourself : Mai kaisa hoon?